***Kiken-na Kuusouka ***

There was a young girl that always daydreamed about becoming a singer, because in her times being a singer was not able for girls.
“Girls should be refined, elegant and a good housewife” that was what her mother say every night when she was going to sleep.

So, in order to make her wish come true, Kuusouka always practices her singing at nights in the roof of the house.

One day, her mother and father when out of the town, and left her all by herself.
Kuusouka jumped of happiness, because she could sing for all the day…
But she did not expected that her parents will come early, so they hear her; mother started crying and screaming…
Father asked “what is the meaning of this?” And hit his wife…
After that mother took her and started yelling at her, telling “what did you do?” And she hit her precious daughter.
After this accident, her mother taught Kuusouka how to become a good housewife, she trained her into cleaning and washing, cooking, being refined and delicate, and always being polite and thankful…
When Kuusouka grows up, she forgot about her dream…

But one day Kuusouka remembers it; her mother took her into a blind date with one of the richest men of Japan…
They were talking about their future and family…
Then the men out of the blue ask to Kuusouka “What is your biggest dream?”
Suddenly, her mind remember about being a singer, Kuusouka smiled and daydreamed being on the stage and singing with all her strong.
Then, the men say… “You smiled… it means it is a happy dream right?”
Kuusouka reply “Of course it is, my dream is to become a good housewife and mother” she said, Kuusouka knows that if she say that she wanted to be a singer, he will just laugh…
“ah…it’s that so, well I think you could be the better and prettiest housewife and mother” he reply…
“ha…thanks…What about your dream?...” she asked.
“I want to take my father’s company”… he answered with a lot of pride
Then, she said “But would it be your father’s dream… instead of your own dream?”
The men surprised by her smart answer, he just laughed.

A couple of weeks after, Kuusouka become Mr. Kikenna’s wife.
She moves into the Kikenna Family, into a new house only for Kuusouka and Keyou.

Mother and father were happy…
Also Keyou says “I will give you everything you want”

Her mother tells to Kuusouka… “I am so proud of you, remember to do everything that your husband want, be always polite and thankful with him, and do everything that I taught you… that way, you will live a happy life my precious daughter”

But mother, father and Keyou did not know that Kuusouka since she met Keyou, she has been taking classes of singing in a club at nights… but that is her biggest secret that she would not say to anybody…

In Kuusouka’s new life, everything was perfect for her, Kuusouka did everything what her husband wanted, but at nights she will escape from home and go to the club to learn singing… everything was good… but the beast could not reside calm…

One day, Keyou returns from his work more early than before, he notices that her wife was not there, he thoughts maybe Kuusouka went out to buy some food, so he waited for her…
The hours passed and she did not come back, so, Keyou was worried, he was going to call the police, when the door opened and saw her wife coming inside the living room…
Keyou happy, he hug Kuusouka, and tell her not to do that anymore, he says “you give me a big scare”, and then Keyou kissed her and went to bed.

The next day, Keyou was concern about something he did not thought last night, “where did she went?”
To know that, Keyou returns to the house more early than yesterday, and saw her wife going out of home; he follows her until the club…

Keyou was knocked, “How come?” …“How come she is betraying me?” “What kind of bitch did I marry?”
He returned to the house and sit in the middle of the living room
Thinking about the past years… “My wife is not happy with me, but I have given it to her all she wants!!... A perfect house, money and my love… What else does she want for me?!! Or… it is something I can not give it to her… it can not be… I am the only one who can make her happy… there is no other”

Without notice, his mind started to run about many ideas, he was going crazy
Kuusouka came back, and saw the furious in person…
Keyou Kikenna was crazy and looks at her with a hateful face…

“Where have you been?” he says.
She says “I went to buy some food”
“YOU LIAR” he screams…
Keyou grabs her arms, and tightened strongly…
And asked one more time “Where have you been?”
And Kuusouka said again “I went to buy food…”

The men say “Do not think you can fool me” and Keyou slap Kuusouka, then he throws her to the ground “I know where have you been… you have been going to that club… just tell me… since when?”

From that moment, Kuusouka knew that she could not lie anymore…
So she told him “I was going there since the first day I met you”

With this answer, Keyou just got more angry than before… he did not know what to do… he wanted to kill her…

Keyou grabs her arms and pushes her against the wall
“Why? Why did not you tell me? Why are you doing this to me?”

Kuusouka did not face him, but she understood that it will be the same as her mother, that singing is something that she can not do… even her husband can not accept it… So, the only thing she could do was to say sorry…

Kuusouka with a low voice said “I am sorry; I did know you will get angry”
He looked at her with angry eyes and say “I am sorry? I am sorry? Do you think I can forget this with only that?”

Once more, Keyou throws her to the ground…

Kuusouka started crying and says “I am sorry; I promise I won’t do it anymore”
After he hears this… he started hitting her so many times…
She screamed and tried to run away…
But he grabbed her neck and started to strangle her
She just cried and repeated many times “I am sorry… I am sorry… I am sorry…
I won’t do it again”
“I won’t sing anymore…”

With all his angry and furious, Keyou did not hear the last word Kuusouka said…
Keyou realized that he was killing her, for that reason he stopped… but since that day his wife Kuusouka lost her voice, she could not talk anymore…

Keyou took her to see the doctor, but they said “that she lost her voice, because damaged in her throat… there is no way she could talk again”
Husband could not do anything; just feel sorry for her wife.

A few days after, the company had a meeting in the club where the wife usually sang…
But Keyou did not remember it was that club, when they where taking their orders, he hear people saying
“Did you know about Kuusouka Kikenna? She lost her voice, she won’t be singing here anymore” and the other reply “really? So bad, Kuusouka had a pretty voice and was good at singing”

After hearing this, Keyou understood what was the thing that he could not give it to Kuusouka. That after all… he was just being jealous… that inside of him there is a beast that does not deserve to have pride…

-Vwei19
~~~~~~ [Verok-chan]~~~

PD: sorry for any eng error >.<

*Kiken-na means insecure
*Kuusouka means dreamer

**The story of the four leaf clover and the fear of the old days*

Once upon a time there was a lonely little girl she was searching for a four leaf clover, always when she see it...when she run for it. She hurt herself, because that four leaf clover wasn't in a field, it was in a mountain of thousand of needles, so everytime she searched for that clover, the needles were pushing and hurting the little girl.When she see it again, the four leaf clover is more far away from she, then she thought that the four leaf clover did not wanted to be caught... she thought "It is running away from me" This makes so much pain for she, so she cryed a little that day, and she wait, she give a chance to wait for the decision of that four leaf clover. So time have past, she try again, but as well everything keep being as the same way... the same pain. So, this time the little and lonely girl was the one who take a decision, she does not want to be following an eternal way, she thought that probably the life mean "a long search for the happiness" but if that four leaf clover is not her happines?... Then all the time, all her pain was just a waste ..a waste of her precious time. That day her decision was.. to show her back to that four leaf clover, to return all the way... maybe it is a give up... but she have to do it like that, even if that four leaf clover appear in her life again, she have to pass by, dont even look at it..because the chance of the four leaf clover has gone.But.. she was worried about, she hope to take the ride of her decision, she hope to dont get on his tramps again.. so that is her new mission; people have called it "forget about it" it sounds really easy but actually it is really hard.She didn't knew how, when or why she started to want that four leaf clover? She has asked her many times.. "why i want it?".. but she did not find the reason why... So, she was thinking that if she get that four leaf clover she will know... but the only thing that she learned is that she can not do anything, she can not keep pushing herself to be something than she is not... because all her life, she has been in a box, she did not wanted to go out, but for that four leaf clover she has gone so far for it.So it's time to return home, she wanted... but could it be that old days bring her the same happiness again?... She tryed it...but it doesn't do.. old days had changed to her. She return to it, she smiled for it but when she look inside her, and she find herself sad and lonely why is that? She wanted to cry, she wanted to be alone... but people dont see it they grab her, they put her to do things that she does not want... she think " Can not they see that i am sadness?" She wanted to scream out, but she does not know why! but that's the way of how she feel...people keep pushing she, rushing she, slaping she at the end...they hurt she with their innocent actions..poor, unlucky wretch little girl... because they didn't know her pain, they hurt she a lot..She wanted to cry, but she couldn't.. why she must be always smiling?Everyday it gets much painfull because when she see her truth face, more down and sad than yesterday.That is how she feel in her return of the old days... but.. she see it now... the reason why she liked that four leaf clover, because that clover give her a reason to keep living, to keep smiling, to have a search, to have a short dream...because when she see that especial clover, she feel really happy, when people talk about it she feel happy.. and she is always thinking about that four leaf clover... When she get back in old days, she had found herself thinking in the four leaf clover... So at many ways it hurts she.. in old days and in her searching way.. She thought "what am i suppoused to do? forget all the ways..? to give the back to the two ways, and walk a new way? ...alone.... Do soreba ii?" She tryed that way.. but they dont want her to go! She wanted to go! They want her in the old days.. but they don't know that things have gone so far, and have changed.. they dont know her sadness... She knows that they are trying their best, but they dont see that she is in a big confusion of what to do know... She wants her own time to think about it, she wants to stop the time, but it is not easy ... they still put her in hard decisions, in hard ways...in a hard way to smile.. but that little sabishii girl keep smiling.. but it is soo fake that it hurts she... a fake smile.. not a warm smile.. what should she do?... Now, she have two ways to look, old days and the days of the four leaf clover, what's better to she? To go in a empy life, without feelings, where everything is soo fake?...or... To go following a hurtful clover, that makes you happy, but for his search she has to get hurted many times, it means a search without ending... she means... a impossible search....

-Vwei19
~~~~~~ [Verok-chan]~~~

PD: Sorry for any eng/sp errors!