***Music Sensation***

You know how music can really touch your heart?
You know how music can make you feel happy?
You know how music can relax you?

Really, I think music is the best creation of humans
Is like magic, like a spell
That makes you dance
Makes you sing
Makes you forget about all problems
A magic that alleviate all pain…
Also, somehow lyrics can express exactly the feelings in your heart
That is!
How good they are!

So, I will put here a lyric of a song I really like
I REPEAT THE LYRICS ARE NOT WRITE BY ME! Ok?
The song is from a Korean drama, called 9 outs 2 ends
And the song name is Sarang dang gi gi or something like that!

One step forward and one step back
I’m tired of the push and pull
If you like me, just tell me you like me
Let’s not squander our time
My love

Why are you acting like this?
What are you being like this to me?
Why, repeatedly
Do you make me agonize?
Knowing how I feel about you?

If you keep at it
If you keep at it on purpose
I, who only have eyes for you
My heart that loves only you
Might change

When good things happen
Or when things go wrong
What I always do first
I think of you, and
I now know why it is so

Well, I am not crazy because of love… but well pretty lyrics

“One step forward and one step back
I’m tired of the push and pull
If you like me, just tell me you like me
Let’s not squander our time
My love”

That is really true if you like her just say it LOL
But well, I like this because I feel like giving a step forward and one step back, I feel tired of the push and pull, and I feel like I am squander my time…
That is why when I listen to it I remember my feelings…

And well the other parts I like it too, although is not like I am feeling,
But well that someone love you so much to feel that way, to say those words
Is truly amazing

So moving further more, if in a test say “which song do you want to believe in?”
Then this one I like much… it is also from 9 outs 2 ends kdrama
Fly again from Byul

"Even if living is hard
Even if I’m tripped up by love
Someday
A great day will come to me
This is the beginning
I am the hero in my life
Don’t forget who you are
It’s OK, don’t worry
Everyone finds it tough going
Take a good night’s rest
And it will be OK
I’m not familiar with the words “give up”
I’m fine, unyielding
Always brave
I’ll bear it

I believe
Even if living is hard
Even if I’m tripped up by love
I won’t cry or whine
This is the beginning
I am the hero in my life
I never don’t cry
Goodbye, sorrowful tears
Goodbye, painful anguish
Wait for me, my dreams from last night
Today’s the beginning
I’ll pull it off, Smile again

It’s OK, just wait and see
Even if I fall ten times
I will rise and triumphantly
Win again
In wind and rain
I’m fine, unyielding
Always brave
I’ll bear it

I believe
Even if living is hard
Even if I’m tripped up by love
I won’t cry or whine
This is the beginning
I am the hero in my life
I never don’t cry
Goodbye, sorrowful tears
Goodbye, painful anguish
Wait for me, my dreams from last night
Today’s the beginning
I’ll pull it off, Smile again
But I still have you
Today, you’re smiling, yet again
My precious friend who’s always been beside me
Fly higher
Until the end of the sky
fly me again
If I fall hundreds of times
If I fall thousands of times
I will never stop here
This is the beginning

I am the hero in my life
I never don’t cry
Goodbye, sorrowful tears
Goodbye, painful anguish
Wait for me, my dreams from last night

Today’s the beginning
I’ll do OK, I don’t cry
Even if love leaves me
Even if the world makes me cry
Someday
A great day will come to me

This is the beginning
I am the hero in my life
I never don’t cry
Goodbye, sorrowful tears
Goodbye, painful anguish"


Why do I believe in this song?
Because I want to believe that I will be strong
That I will go ahead no matter what happen
That I will forget about sad memories
That I won’t hold to the past
That I will do OK, that a great day waits for me…

And there is a song like this one, about smile
I had always thought that smile is the best thing you can do
You won't make people worry because they will believe you are happy
And somehow you will believe that you are happy too
And of course, because people can fall in love by seeing a bright smile
So… WARATTE!! わらって　！！
This is Ai Otsuka song, called Smily

"La la la, yeah...
Pushing more than usual (no way)
Love love day (yeah!)
Coming and going, getting ready (ha!)
I care (go!!)

Everyone get together and have fun being young
I want to be a happy person, even more than this, smily

Wanting to cry, it's something that can be found alone
Smile, smile, I want to see your smiling face
When I want to cry, please be quietly at my side
Smile, smile, I want to see you tomorrow

La la la, yeah...
I'm a prettier girl than usual (no way)
Lucky day (yeah!)
I'm strong (ha!)
That's what I think (go!)

It's something without form; so it's interesting, and dear to me
I want it to be happy, more than ever before

Let's go and find lost feelings once more
Smile, smile, I want to see your smiling face
Try entrusting your sad feelings to whistling
Smile, smile, I want to see you tomorrow

Wanting to cry, it's something that can be found alone
Smile, smile, I want to see your smiling face
When I want to cry, please be quietly at my side
Smile, smile, I want to see you tomorrow

La la la, I want to see you tomorrow"

I feel like singing this song everyday LOL
So, what did we learn today? (When the hell did I transform into a teacher??!)
Well, we should smile no matter how much we want to cry
We need to be strong…
We should forget about sadness
We must believe in ourselves and be confident
We do not have to give up to our wishes
If we try, if we can get to do this
Then we will live our life?

I know that you already know this… but do not you get a feeling by reading the lyrics? A feeling of that you are not alone that you can do your best?
And of course if you hear the music with the lyric
Then you will tear your pain!

がんばって！！！わらって！！

-Vwei19
~~~~~~ [Verok-chan]~~~

PD: sorry for any eng error >.<

***Why, when, what, where, how***

Where are you going?
Why did you left me?
Are you seeing me from above?
Are you happy? Are you proud of me?

I wonder, if the time didn’t stop for you that day, what will I be right now?
You always carry my tears, teach me and give me the best, you were my perfect man… but perfection isn’t true

But I can tell a lie… you were a good father after all…
My secret is… that someday I want to reach the place where you are, and I want to give you all the memories I did in this life…
I want to be what you always told me I was… a beautiful star…
But being a star, it isn’t easy… no matter how much I do, no matter my skills, I see that money wins over everything, contacts win over all…

Can I keep going this way?
I always see the sky, and I wonder why I always see the sky when the moon is bright, and why do I feel better after seeing the moon…
What is there in the clouds?
Sometimes I feel the sky smiling for me, I feel like it’s the only thing that gives me the strong I need…

Father… do you know how I am now?
Do you know how much I want my family?
I don’t want to cause any troubles to my mother and sister
But I’m already making it
Why?
Why can I win the money, so my mother won’t spend anything in me?
Why can I bring her the smiles, she need?
Why can not I do the things by myself?
Why I am not so strong?
Why my health it isn’t good?
Why I don’t have the contact and money to make their life easy?
Why my dream doesn’t come true?
Why don’t you let me go?

When?
When is going to happen?
When miracles will success?
When will I recover all the money my mother spends in me?
When will I be enough strong?
When will I be by myself?
When will my dreams come true?
When will I become a star?
When will I ever see you again?
When will it over?
When the moons stop to bright?
When will you let me go?
What?
What should I do?
What do I need?
What do I am?
What is my heart?
What are you doing?

Where?
Where the suns rise up?
Where is the way I should follow?
Where are you?
Where I am?
Where is the strong I need?
Where is the smile I am waiting for?
Where is my heart?
Where the stars appear?

How?
How should I do?
How can I be strong?
How can I go where you are?
How can I smile?
How can you bright?
How can I become a star?
How can I repay all the problems I’m doing?
How can I continue your time?
How can I stop my time?
How should I end this?


… People tell me fuck… kill yourself!!...
But that is not what I want…. Why they misunderstand everything?
I have many memories and things I have to do…
Of course I will keep going, but I can’t keep going if I don’t leave you behind…
I can’t continue if I don’t become stronger
I can’t if my dreams disappear…
But still… I can keep going
No matter what
Because I feel that from far away, you, my beloved dad, you are cheering for me, you are proud of me… right?

-Vwei19
~~~~~~ [Verok-chan]~~~



PD: sorry for any eng errors!

**The story of the four leaf clover and the fear of the old days*

Once upon a time there was a lonely little girl she was searching for a four leaf clover, always when she see it...when she run for it. She hurt herself, because that four leaf clover wasn't in a field, it was in a mountain of thousand of needles, so everytime she searched for that clover, the needles were pushing and hurting the little girl.When she see it again, the four leaf clover is more far away from she, then she thought that the four leaf clover did not wanted to be caught... she thought "It is running away from me" This makes so much pain for she, so she cryed a little that day, and she wait, she give a chance to wait for the decision of that four leaf clover. So time have past, she try again, but as well everything keep being as the same way... the same pain. So, this time the little and lonely girl was the one who take a decision, she does not want to be following an eternal way, she thought that probably the life mean "a long search for the happiness" but if that four leaf clover is not her happines?... Then all the time, all her pain was just a waste ..a waste of her precious time. That day her decision was.. to show her back to that four leaf clover, to return all the way... maybe it is a give up... but she have to do it like that, even if that four leaf clover appear in her life again, she have to pass by, dont even look at it..because the chance of the four leaf clover has gone.But.. she was worried about, she hope to take the ride of her decision, she hope to dont get on his tramps again.. so that is her new mission; people have called it "forget about it" it sounds really easy but actually it is really hard.She didn't knew how, when or why she started to want that four leaf clover? She has asked her many times.. "why i want it?".. but she did not find the reason why... So, she was thinking that if she get that four leaf clover she will know... but the only thing that she learned is that she can not do anything, she can not keep pushing herself to be something than she is not... because all her life, she has been in a box, she did not wanted to go out, but for that four leaf clover she has gone so far for it.So it's time to return home, she wanted... but could it be that old days bring her the same happiness again?... She tryed it...but it doesn't do.. old days had changed to her. She return to it, she smiled for it but when she look inside her, and she find herself sad and lonely why is that? She wanted to cry, she wanted to be alone... but people dont see it they grab her, they put her to do things that she does not want... she think " Can not they see that i am sadness?" She wanted to scream out, but she does not know why! but that's the way of how she feel...people keep pushing she, rushing she, slaping she at the end...they hurt she with their innocent actions..poor, unlucky wretch little girl... because they didn't know her pain, they hurt she a lot..She wanted to cry, but she couldn't.. why she must be always smiling?Everyday it gets much painfull because when she see her truth face, more down and sad than yesterday.That is how she feel in her return of the old days... but.. she see it now... the reason why she liked that four leaf clover, because that clover give her a reason to keep living, to keep smiling, to have a search, to have a short dream...because when she see that especial clover, she feel really happy, when people talk about it she feel happy.. and she is always thinking about that four leaf clover... When she get back in old days, she had found herself thinking in the four leaf clover... So at many ways it hurts she.. in old days and in her searching way.. She thought "what am i suppoused to do? forget all the ways..? to give the back to the two ways, and walk a new way? ...alone.... Do soreba ii?" She tryed that way.. but they dont want her to go! She wanted to go! They want her in the old days.. but they don't know that things have gone so far, and have changed.. they dont know her sadness... She knows that they are trying their best, but they dont see that she is in a big confusion of what to do know... She wants her own time to think about it, she wants to stop the time, but it is not easy ... they still put her in hard decisions, in hard ways...in a hard way to smile.. but that little sabishii girl keep smiling.. but it is soo fake that it hurts she... a fake smile.. not a warm smile.. what should she do?... Now, she have two ways to look, old days and the days of the four leaf clover, what's better to she? To go in a empy life, without feelings, where everything is soo fake?...or... To go following a hurtful clover, that makes you happy, but for his search she has to get hurted many times, it means a search without ending... she means... a impossible search....

-Vwei19
~~~~~~ [Verok-chan]~~~

PD: Sorry for any eng/sp errors!